♥EveryPurpleSense♥

♥Every Purple Sense♥

Friday, June 17, 2011.

been missing for quite some time. not abandoning,nooo. just too much things happening.

Ive been on tumblr most of the time cause it pretty much have what I've been feeling lately.

I'm pretty messed up and trying my very utmost best to get back up on my feet. retail therapy used to be my remedy but now,with financial difficulties,dream on.

I hate to pretend that I'm fine and okay all the single time just not to make someone's ears bleed.

I am not okay. I wanna break down and cry. I wanna tell someone that I've had enough. arguing with Andre almost everyday over small simple things. crying to sleep. i need a break.

I'm feeling pathetic right now,having to type all these words,my feelings. like Ive got nothing better to do.

And now the emotions i felt earlier can't seem to apply to my fingers. what the hell am i supposed to say now. i want to let it out. i want to let you people know that I'm miserable. i AM NOT seeking attention,i just want to let it out. i apologize. if this is making you roll your eyes,just click x.

My birthday is next week,and I'm not looking forward to it. I don't expect for anything. It's strange. I feel like disappearing on that day. remove my birthday on facebook so no one will know and not a single soul will wish me. I'm feeling so low right now.

I need a hug badly and someone who'll say everything is gonna be fine and you'll be okay.

received a call from Dad and actually he just wanted to talk to brother cause brother didn't answer his calls. i thought he called to talk to me. idk if i want to see him this Sunday. i feel as though my own family is making use of me. taking me for granted. it's actually not a surprise.hah.

the one who did nothing at home but look after this neighbour's daughter(she's actually just sleeping her ass off and rant when the kid wakes her up and cry) and gets a reward per day and i get nothing for looking after everything at home every fucking day.

do i deserve this? maybe. for being too damn weak,stupid,gullible,soft and obeying everyone.

7:23 PM