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Sunday, October 2, 2011.

um,hi.

It's October. and I'm struggling to survive till the day i get my pay. been living on bread and plain water for almost 2weeks. food at home is not included.haha

so,uhmm,I've been trying to be okay. be happy,smile,think positive. colleagues at work has been a great help to put a smile on my face. but sometimes,it's hindering to smile when you don't feel like smiling,you know? but ok,I'm doing a good job so far.

I'll have to pass alot of things that i want this month,cause my pay is not that much. hopefully next month will ease my burdens. just a little bit off my shoulder will be terrific :)

5:31 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2011.

Change

I'm amazed when i hear stories about people who changed from their previous lifestyle. Like entirely drastically changed. the good ones i mean. i respect their strong will to do something that is not easy to accomplish. I wished i have that strong will too. i believe in Allah,in Allah's existence,seek help from Allah and thank Allah for the blessings. but why am i not dutiful to Allah? Yes i have been praying but not constantly and i can feel my soul is peaceful but not my surroundings. What does that mean? Maybe i still have some "unfinished business" to someone? I've been trying to figure this out. maybe i do know and maybe i have no idea at all.

You can become bad within seconds but to become good? It really takes a huge amount of faith and believes to do so. i strongly believe i can but i tend to break down easily when people around me,especially my dearests do something that i never even thought of. and that'll lead to negativity. and i hate that.

I silently pray for my family to get better and sincerely happy for each other.

Brother,i don't want money causing you to forget who you are.

Mum,please wake up,this is the reality.

Dad,you're the head of your own family,you have the right to stand up for me.

Me,do my best to be a good sister,daughter,friend and not forgetting,be dutiful to Allah SWT. Amin.

12:52 AM